sometimes i feel that the world is such a hell. There’s no one could be by my side, when i walking through the crowd. Everyone saw me with a weird look, and  unfortunately i should heared that hurting words “big, fat, etc”, it’s so hurt, i just showed my smile but i’m crying as hard as i can inside.

I hate myself, i hate when i can’t keep my hunger, i was so greedy! i eat anything, i do. But in my heart i was screamed “don’t eat that, don’t, don’t!”, but i do that, I DO THAT!!!!

I beg now, God..

please keep my hunger, please. i wanna be like another girl, have a fancier, can wear so much clothes that i loved, can be looking beautiful every day, and can’t be hear some silly words again. I believe this world can be a heaven.

I beg you God, help me to face it. I wanna be a beautiful girl. Help me , pleasee…

Thanks God, i know You’ll always be by myside, hear my pray, and i wish You’ll make it true